I am Hekate.
Professional Impact Player based in Berlin.
The Fascination
I was 17 when I first became fascinated by the extraordinary power of the mind over the body. Fakirs walking barefoot across hot coals. Teeth extracted under hypnosis with no drugs. People multiplying their performance on a stationary bike while in trance. How was any of this possible?
That fascination inspired me to study psychology and dedicate myself to understanding the mind's remarkable ability to shape, transform and sometimes transcend physical experience.
The Scientist
Throughout my studies in Hungary, I explored altered states of consciousness in many forms: hypnosis, holotropic breathing, ecstatic dance, meditation and endurance sports. I was a semi-professional swimmer, and I even ran two marathons, for the only reason to experience runner's high for myself in a (relatively) safe setting.
My fascination eventually led me to professional training in hypnosis, and later to a PhD in psychology focused on behavioral addictions - non-chemically induced trance-like states of mind. My research explored how motivation, personality and behaviors interact over time—and how deeply our thoughts, emotions, and experiences shape the way we feel, behave, and ultimately even the biology of the brain.
The Masochist
Yet some of the most important lessons happened after university.
As a sadomasochist, I discovered impact play during my BDSM journey in Berlin, and was immediately captivated by its depth, complexity, and transformative power. My first experience being flogged was both magical and life-changing. It taught me something I had spent years studying intellectually: how to let go, trust the process, and allow myself to fully experience whatever the moment had to offer while suffering.
I became fascinated by the strange alchemy through which pain can become pleasure, intensity can become bliss, and surrender can become freedom. It felt as though my unconscious inclinations, my academic training, and my scientific curiosity had finally found a common, fertile ground.
But doing impact play privately and doing it professionally are two very different things, and turning it into a career wasn't even in my wildest dreams.
The Turning Point
After completing my doctorate in Psychology, I worked professionally with data: first in academic statistics, and later in data science. But it wasn't until I became a mother—and later found myself in the middle of a midlife crisis—that I reconnected with my passion.
Between job searches returning from parental leave, I immersed myself in the technical, psychological, and artistic dimensions of impact play, and shortly afterwards discovered finger flogging. Friends and play partners began asking for sessions. People started recognizing me at kinky parties. Others wanted to learn from me.
What had started as a personal fascination was slowly turning into a calling.
The final push came during a profound spiritual experience at a dance retreat in the summer of 2025. For the first time, I allowed myself to stop treating this path as a hobby and start treating it as the work I was meant to do.
Today
Today I dedicate myself fully to impact play. It’s no longer “just a little sideproject” - it’s a full time job where I offer private sessions, workshops, and build spaces where Berlin's BDSM and impact play communities can learn, connect and grow.
My approach combines scientific understanding, technical precision, and deep respect for the wisdom of the body. Whether through pain, rhythm, anticipation, or altered states of consciousness, I am interested in one thing above all else: helping people reconnect with themselves and discover how much more they are capable of feeling, enduring, and transforming into growth, pleasure, and meaning.
I didn't choose this work. This work chose me—and I consented.
There is something profoundly liberating about giving your feelings and intuition permission to arise and allowing them to move you. Yet none of this would have been possible alone. I remain deeply grateful to the people who encouraged me to follow this path and to everyone who helped me grow into it, whether as teachers, play partners, clients, or fellow professionals.
