Wearing a snake necklace and holding red BDSM floggers, she stands poised between control, science, and altered states of counsciousness in Berlin..

My name is A. (she/her).

I am a professional impact player based in Berlin.

I was 17 when I first became fascinated by the extraordinary power of the mind over the body. It inspired me to study psychology and dedicate myself to understanding the mind’s capacity to transcend physical experience. Throughout my studies, I explored the full spectrum of altered states of consciousness - from holotropic breathing to ecstatic dance, even running two marathons to experience runner’s high. My fascination eventually led me to a PhD in non-chemical addictions, where I studied how habits shape the biochemistry of the brain.

After completing my doctorate, I worked professionally with data. But it wasn’t until I became a mother - and found myself in the middle of a midlife crisis - that I reconnected with my passion, thanks to a lucky encounter with impact play in Berlin.

There's nothing quite like the altered state of consciousness that arises from a well-delivered impact session - its power to heal, to inspire, and to transform is unlike anything else.

That experience reawakened my personal and scientific curiosity. I became facinated (again) by how the mind can transform the experience of physical pain into full-body (even spiritual) pleasure.

And then, the circle became full.